Despite my conviction that the baby would be born on her due date, we're three days past that and still just waiting. We're going to the doctor on Monday to do a fetal monitoring/nonstress test/sonogram just to make sure that everything is all right. At the appointment on Thursday we found out that we were making some progress - she's finally started to drop, and I'm about 2 cm dilated and 50% effaced - so we're not too worried about anything, but it's just standard to do the screening if you go past your due date. So assuming that she doesn't come tonight, we'll have a look tomorrow and just kind of go from there.
Adam and I were half convinced that we'd have the baby this weekend. I've been pretty crazy emotional lately. Yesterday, Adam thought it would be kind of fun to watch Saturday morning cartoons to see what it was we'd be seeing in the next few years. We were watching VeggieTales, and the point was that a happy heart is a thankful heart and that you can't buy happiness. One of the scenes was with Junior and his father at the toy store, and Junior sees this train set that he thinks is the coolest thing ever, and he has a whole song about how great it is and how much he wants it. But apparently it's an expensive train set, so his dad tells him that he can't afford it, and wouldn't Junior like a ball instead? Junior decides that as long as he and his dad can go play with the ball in the park that would be great, but it made me think that there will be times when Lumberjack wants something and we won't be able to give it to her and it made me so sad! I was just sitting there bawling for probably five minutes about that. Then there was a Chevron commercial about energy needs in the future, and they showed a newborn baby in the hospital nursery with the daddy just looking through the window, and that made me cry too. And I woke up at 4:30 this morning and realized that we hadn't gotten a baby book yet, and I was convinced that we wouldn't ever get one and Lumberjack would think that I'm a horrible mom, and that made me cry more. So we were thinking that my hormones must be raging, but so far no baby.
We did go to the bookstore this afternoon to get a baby book so that I wouldn't have to worry about that anymore. I've filled out most of the "before you wer born" parts, and we put it in the hospital suitcase so that we can be sure to get handprints and footprints in there when she's born. So at least I can feel better about that now!
